What is Rape, to me?

What is rape?
To me?
You never even asked this.
A simple creature, undisturbed by
The horrors that did not apply
To your own life.
What is it to me?
Rape is when my love held me down
Whispering words meant to trick me;
Blind me.
Drunk, blessed drunk,
When he took me for the first time.
Rape is when the fear came,
Long before the pain.
Rape is how I felt
In the moments that were
Precursor to my shame.
Rape is what I felt,
When he turned me over, roughly,
And took his liberties with my body,
Tearing my flesh and splashing my blood
Across my own sheets.
Rape is what I felt
When he hit me;
Saw my tears and struck me hard enough
to make my ears ring.
Rape is what I felt
When the man I trusted more than myself
Beat me bloody in my own bed
And told me I was
NOTHING
and no one cared.
Rape is what I felt
When my friends and family ignored
My screams for help.
Rape is what I felt.
And now,
Years later,
I still feel that pain.
Your jokes don't help,
They desensitize and hurt;
They cause me anguish
While you're sitting in your room laughing
at some shallow joke,
I'm here wishing you had a fucking heart
and could, for a moment,
Put yourself in my place
And ask
"Is it funny"?

Arguments about Gay Marriage: The Breakdown

  A lot of people have this strange notion that legally allowing gay marriage (or even allowing homosexual sex between consenting adults in their private homes) will pave the way for other sexual/romantic relationships that others find abhorrent.

• Marriage to animals
• Marriage to family members
• Marriage to inanimate objects
• Marriage between adults and children

So, for discussion's sake, I'm going to break these down and explain why gay marriage does not encourage these unions, and will not somehow make them legal or acceptable.

• Marriage to Animals: In this country (I am writing from America), we frown on any unions of any type that are not consensual. This can be classified as rape or slavery. We do not yet have a way to coherently and completely communicate with species outside our own, since humans evolved with a spoken language. Even if two humans speak different languages, there are ways of translating for each of them adequately so that they can understand the others desires. Humans do NOT have this capability with non-human life forms. Since there is no way for a human and non-human to reach an agreement, no choices or unions are consensual. This union would be slavery/rape, which is abhorrent to nearly all peoples of Earth, and is a punishable offense in Western culture.
• Marriage to Family Members: Incestuous relationships are RARELY voluntary and consensual, usually taking place when a person has power over a younger/infirm family member that cannot (for various reasons) resist their advances or wishes. We also know that human beings are hard wired to find family members unappealing sexually. This is because, like most life forms, we wish to diversify our genetics and create stronger beings after us, not distill our familial short comings. Again, any instance of forced union is rape. Any instance of having sexual contact with someone incapable of consenting is rape/sexual assault. So we can safely say that forced, incestuous pairings will remain illegal and taboo. (I am not going to comment on adult consensual incest. I simply do not have time or desire to do so.)
• Marriage to Inanimate Objects: I don't even understand why this comes up in debates or smear campaigns, but I have seen it. All I really have to say here is that there are already people in devoted relationships (and yes, even marriages) to inanimate objects. For example Erika La Tour Eiffel is married to the Eiffel Tower. She has a condition known as Objectum Sexuality. There are approximately 40 OS people in the world (all women) that identify as OS. These people are not doing anyone harm - certainly taking a guitar or statue of a building to bed with you is no different that adult aides designed for that purpose. Erika has changed her name to reflect her bond, and visits her Tower when she can. At home, she has pictures and replicas of her beloved. This is a victimless crime, as these women are attached to inanimate objects. I'm sure that you have a favorite song, or pair of shoes, or you love your car a little more than your friends think is normal. But you are not hurting anyone, and neither are they.
• Marriage between Adults and Children: This is pretty much the same argument I've made before, but I feel that I can expand on it. In Western society, children stay children until they are around 18-20 years of age, and most are not expected to have moved out, gotten jobs, or found a partner yet. This is because in our society, education persists through the teen years, children are allowed to live in their family homes longer, and American daughters are not "married off" as soon as they are physically mature. As such, Western children's minds and knowledge are not complete enough to handle many issues until much later than other parts of the world. It could even be argued that there is more to learn for children of developed, advanced cultures. Knowledge of banking systems, how to succeed in business, continued education to specialize in whatever they desire... Simply put, they are children longer. Because we value education and personal growth for all our country's children, they cannot be expected to make decisions of a sexual or romantic nature until they are much older. They do not have the knowledge base or even enough understanding of themselves to make these choices. Therefore, all relationships between adult and child are not consensual. This would be rape/molestation, and we've already all agreed that forced unions are wrong.

What do all these points and explanations have to do with homosexuality?
Absolutely nothing.
Any questions?

Thoughts on America

Issues America has:

• Drug cartels in other countries, because they bring in an illegal substance, cause death and destruction, and the money is used to further perpetrate a corrupt system based around fear and death.
• Gay Marriage (because reasons, I suppose).

Here are some things I think about these issues:

• We can all acknowledge that drugs are going to be used by people that want to use them. If we stop other countries from getting drugs into ours, we will then have to contend with the drugs being manufactured and/or grown in our own country. The logical step to prevent other (perhaps hostile) countries from giving our people unsafe, unregulated drugs that were brought here by people forced into said trade under penalty of their families being murdered by drug lords would be to legalize and regulate drugs. Perhaps even set up facilities for those that insist on using said drugs. This does not fix all problems with drugs, of course. Many are dangerous and can kill our people. But these selfsame people will find ways to obtain drugs by any means necessary, and if it comes to that then we, as a nation, should do our best to keep them safe, educated, and monitored. It is not ideal, but (in my opinion) much safer for our country and its individual people.
• Being “anti-” anything gives the idea or object power. Do not acknowledge that which does not affect you if you must. Homo-eroticism and Homo-romanticism have existed and have been documented for all recorded human history, and is observed in many other species. These species did not die out, and neither has humanity died out or become overwhelmingly populated by same-sex inclined persons, pedophiles, or deviants (I list these persons because these are common arguments of the hyper-anti-gay collective groups). Marriage is a religious term. Not all people have one religion. America is a country meant to be a land of religious freedom. HOWEVER, many non-religious persons are “married” (as in, a committed partnership wherein assets, duties, and domicile(s) are shared). THEREFORE, no one married outside the Church is technically married, but “marriage” has become vernacular describing a union. If we can agree that these things are true, and agree that “marriage” can be described as a consensual union between people, then the Church and State have no grounds to disallow a union between persons. (I flatly refuse to discuss the quibbling over “union” and “marriage”).

We Tell Ourselves

"And in the darkest hour,
Through it, soon, shall show the day."
I told myself, alone, one night.
A prayer, and a hope,
of new Light to come forth.
Yet on and on stretched the night,
With a single star,
So distant,
Seemingly unattainable.

Nihilist

When I left her,
She was, at best,
A broken thing.
Full of tears and remorse;
Piteous and poorly used.
And then, slowly love,
She evolved into the fine essence
of Nihilism.
Her world had it’s shape,
And she hers.
To better find the proper fit
She examined, sought, and pondered
The world’s many faces and
Promised - so gently -
To find the Truth.
Awakening, done dreaming,
the Truth
was simply Her.